My New Year's Eve

Hi everybody! I'm Illyana and I'm 8 years old. :p For today's show and tell, I want to share my story with you guys about my New Year's Eve celebration.

There's countdown everywhere tonight. Some might be in OU, some might be at KLCC, or  Putrajaya tonight. While in Shah Alam, there's two hot-spots for tonight; Skatepark and i-City. But, my countdown started with a cockroach. And another one-- flying cockroach. While others started to countdown, me and Achik, with facial masks on our face, here, running away from the flying cockroach! One is already dead, maybe because it cannot fly so its easy for me to spray. Yes! The victory is mine. But the flying one, is currently missing in action. Just now, it stickied on the wall and Achik sprayed it with SHIELDTOX.  So, it flew away, and hiding somewhere that we cannot see. Later, we found it! (WE FOUND IT!!) Under Achik's blanket. (Ewwww!!) I thought it was dead already. So, Achik stand by with Shieldtox in hand, while me, get ready to take the blanket off. *Poof!!* There it was. Lying on the bed, like its it's bed. He's lying on the cat's face. I mean, she got a barbie holding a cat on her bed's sheet. So, the flying cockroach, lying on the cat's face. Pity cat. Got a naked cockroach on it's face. So, I took a ruler and hit the bed's sheet a few times, but it doesn't even moved a bit. So, I smashed it, and it started to fly again!! So, we ran away, hiding. And until now, I don't know where it went, and I got myself a big fat giant little sister on my bed, with unfinished facial mask on her face, begging me to let her sleep on my lovely bed. *Teet teet teet* We can hear it's footsteps, seems like something is walking somewhere on the floor! Got to go, friends. We got a mission to be finished. 

Good night and Happy New Year!

P/S: She didn't put my picture on her new post (December 31) because she said, I ain't new to her and she did mentioned that, I'm so BIG in her video. And that is so NOT SWEET at all. And she's currently cubit-ing me for writing this. What a life. You know what, people. She's a FATFACE. Put me in your New Year's post, and I'll delete this in return. (Ali, TAKE NOTE!! :p)

My 31st.

Last night, *Mak sent us six pulut kuning!! Siapa khatam Al-Quran? No one. Hehe. Today is *Ayah's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AYAH!! So technically, the pulut kuning was the intro and it was all home made okay. Tak main tempah kedai :p Going over to Mak's place tonight, maybe. So nothing much I can say but people seems busy preparing themselves for tonight's eve? But yeah, as usual, like every year, we celebrate the eve together with Ayah's birthday. Hehe. Isn't it good to be with the family on New Year's Eve? :p Well, we are talking about the big bang here. Got anak, got cucu, got cicit -- all under one roof. And what I like the most about my room is, I can see the fireworks through my windows. I don't know why, but I can see it clearly from here. No matter what festive we are celebrating. Merdeka? Christmas? There will be fireworks playing on midnight, eventhough I don't know where it came from. Pretty interesting, right? Same goes to my room in Jakarta. I remember once, I got my ex-boyfriend on the phone during New Year's Eve, and I sat at the balcony and asked him, "Can you hear the fireworks?," after I put my phone outside for 3 minutes for him to hear it. "No," he replied. (&%$#@!) But I swear there were fireworks playing over around the area, and it was the big big ones not that little firecrackers! So I got the fireworks recorded in my phone and showed him as soon as I had landed here. Semangat tak?


**Mak & Ayah - technically my Granparents angkat.

Last night I went through the album of Ayah Su and Kak Min. The pre-wedding photos that going to be put in the invitation cards later. And guess what? Shamil is their photographer?! (Selama ini aku memandang rendah terhadap adik ku yang hitam itu) Looking at those pictures makes me wanna join them to get married!! Wedding hari-hari sebab nak gambar je :p Thought of promoting his works on blog but earlier, he warned me already, "Jangan upload kat mana-mana eh. This is private. After wedding baru boleh upload" which will be on May 2011 -__-! So, sorry yeah. 

Today is the last day of watching Satria =(( I feel like crying right now. Like seriously. I feel happy whenever I get to see him on TV. I don't know why. Kepala bengong kot. Whatever it is, I'm really hoping twenty-eleven will be a very good year to me. I really really hope that. And yet, I need that luck. I know I've been bad, but I really really hope You can hear me, Allah. Whenever, or whatever I'm going to go through, please, please be with me and give me strength to face them all. No matter what I said, or what I do. I just can't lie to myself. I'm sorry. 

Well, new year is coming up next. 2010, eventhough it was pretty fucked up, but well, TODAY-- it certainly is that special time of year, the 'most wonderful time' as some calling it, and while it is wonderfully enjoyable it is also another reason to be incredibly busy! Looking back, there have definitely been a lot of things that happened this year. Some good, some bad. So what I'm trying to say is, there's still a beautiful side of 2010. I grew a bit older this year, with all the experiences I managed to have, challenges, risks that I took, some out-of-mind decisions, falling in love and heartbreaks, there are all beautiful in their own way, even still, it seems like it went by very fast. At least I have memories to be written out. And that's what 2010 has showed me and taught me inside out. I'm sorry if I always giving you with bad names, 2010. You've been good. With all of the ups and downs, and now, it's coming to an end. Along the way, I met a lot of beautiful people. Yet, I made some big changes this past year. I've faced the hardest, I've been in the weakest, and I believe it was all just the beginning, and more to come somewhere in the future. Some are productive, some are just fun. Whatever happened, let's just cheers to our memories in 2010. It filled with beautiful tales, beautiful people, beautiful disaster in my another beautiful year. I'll try to not to look back, and get back on track. And now, it's time to welcome in 2011, and it is with high hopes that I do so. We never know what's coming in our way, but let's just pray for the best; for you, for me, and the rest. Amin.

Au revoir, 2010!

And Happy New Year, everyone. 

Have a great one and see you next year. (:

Cherry Cherry Boom Boom

INI EPIC DOH BOTAK. Haha. I clicked "See Friendship" on Facebook, keluar gambar Puncak Alam. Haha! And yeah, it reminds me of something. No matter how much I crave for a big brother, I knew the fact that I'll never getting any. But yeah, I met Botak atau nama Islam nya Mazhar Qusyairy. He's a good friend of mine yet a freaking epicly EPIC-est of the most epicest!! HAHAHAHA!! Majulah videogames untuk negara!! :O

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A small Boy wrote to Santa Claus,
"send me a brother."

Santa wrote back,
"SEND ME YOUR MOTHER."

- Reader's Digest :p

Hello, I'm Illy from Liliput! :D

Hello hello.

Munkii, well, got badnews for you man. My Sam Flynn is way way wayyyy better than your Gulliver!!! Trust me on this baby. HAHAHAH!! Sam Flynn sangat setailooo!! EEEEEEEEEE :D The new telling tale was, hmm not bad. Quite funny although its a bit annoying. I've read about the tale somewhere back then when I was in kindergarten. The story was a bit serious back there while this new telling story is 80% has been modernized. I had my time in there. Jack Black was-- almost awesome. Heee!! Well, I went for the movie with Achik and Chico Chica :p Yeah man. Dia pendek je. HAHAHAHA!! At first he suggested for 'Aku Masih Dara' movie. What the heck. And and we went for foot reflexology. Whoaaaa got ikan gigit gigit kaki wooo. Chico's treat! EEEEEE :D Thank you, bud. It was my first time I gave my feet for ikan to makan. OMGEE. So geli-geli ritee? HOYEAH. Chico was so noisy, asking me to stay still and not to move my feet. And he was so scared if his pants basah. Whaaat la you. So not the jantang. Kambing je takut air :p But I'm so proud of you!! You bangun awal today. Auww!! This morning, it was pretty hectic as I was sending Achik to school, balik mandi, pick her up, and rush to Pyramid. You see, Illy is always last minute. Like what Adie mentioned before, "she's unpredictable," :p

And and today Botak tried to cook lasagna!! Auwww. Eventhough the top was a bit, or completely hangus, but I'm so touched!! :') The story began when I said to him, "Botak, maybe a week after buka sem I and the girls gerak PD kot. Visit you and your mum," I said. "Bagitau dulu before datang tau. Jangan memandai nak buat surprise," he replied. "Kenapa? Surprise la best!". "Nak masak spaghetti untuk korang, nanti tak makan karang,". "WHOA!! MAKANAN?? Memang hari hari dalam minggu tu I call you nak ingatkan you, HAHA! Tapi.. alaaaa, nak lasagna!! I suka lasagna!!". "Lasagna? I tak pernah try buat,". "I pernah masak lasagna, tapi top dia hangus doh,". "Macam susah je. Spaghetti je la. Senang dan sedap!". "Yelah yelah,". And guess what? he tried to make one today!! AUWWWWW practice makes perfect!! :p

Try to click on this blog. Especially abang-abang dan kakak kakak Palap. I don't know what's the purpose of the writer but I think it's a bit overboard to write such things. (Just giving an opinion LOL) Eventhough it  was written a long long looooong time ago in 2007, but but Botak gave me this link. Tak boleh blah jugak lah. HAHAH. Check this out: KESATRIA.

Going back to Lendu in 2 days time. YAY YAY!! Can't wait!! :D

We No Speak Americano

سْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

For the whole day I spent my time glancing over the new LOL book that I've just received this morning. And here's some of my favourites for the day. :D

It is so rare to be offered a meal on airlines these days that I was surprised to hear the flight attendant ask the man sitting in front of me, "Would you like dinner?". "What are my choices?" he responded. "Yes or No" she said. - Kervyn Dimney.

My stepfather bought an autofocus camera on holiday and lined the family up for a photo beside the pool. 'I don't need any help; this camera is foolproof,' he told us as he stepped backwards into the water. - Charlotte Joseph.

I dialed a wrong number and got the following recording: 'I am not available right now, but I thank you for caring enough to call. I am making some changes in my life. Please leave a message after the beep. If I do not return your call, you are one of the changes.'  - Antonio Curtis.

Seen printed on the T-shirt of an obviously pregnant woman: -

 'UNDER CONSTRUCTION' - W. Barnes

- National Geographic®.

P/S : I hope it helps to put a smile on that face. Technically, I was designed to bring smiles to all ages. Yes, I am!! One in a million. Aahhh, now I feel special. HAHAHAH!! Please excuse the lameness. Chalo!! :D

I'm A Small Small Girl, In A Big Big World

# Now playing The Other Side by Bruno Mars 

I may be small, but I have universe in mind.

Evening, everybody. I woke up at 12 in the afternoon.

It was great. HAHA

Even more so because I absolutely had to get up. Or later I'll be woken up by Abah himself. Oh, itu horror. Also, I re-learned that hitting the snooze for a meager fifteen minutes actually does put me running late. Planned to hit Giant this morning. But, I was ran out of time. By 3 I have to mengaji. Oh Illy, don't you ever do this in Melaka. HO YEAH!! Cannot skip any classes!! Full attendance is my cream. *crack crack

I am so ready to go back. Yeah, Melaka. Just wait for me!! *counting sheep* Ho yeah, I'm full of semangat and enthusiasm when it comes to new semester. Ho yeah!! Don't ask why. I don't have the damn answer. I'm just, excited. HAHAHA! To get back with my bitches, see my friends that aren't down here in Shah Alam. Too much of holidays isn't that cool. But between that, I actually have a chance to enjoy my favorite time of year, Unlimited-Hibernating-Time! Oh yeah, Imma sleepyhead. Hard one. This semester break, I ate loads-- until my tummy can't cope. I've gained two bloody kilograms!!! I ate my pills to keep the weight reduced and I've tried my best to control my food taken, but but but but Mama's is the best!! And it's all-you-can-eat-for-FREE!! What's not to love?? It's just irresistible!! (Oh somebodee please kill me!)

My schedule is totally packed. Oh yeah, FULLY BOOKED for the whole week. Got so much to do between now and Friday. Well, I love being a busy bee. EEEEEEEEEEEEE!! :D I'm so excited to cuci rumah!! OH yess!! I enjoy bubblebath!! I love water game!! Boleh main slide slide. HAHAHA!! Seriously, sangat excited!! Because I know, as soon as I walk in the door, I have more things to do than now. So yeah, things are going to start getting pretty hectic later. But that's okay. I embrace it. Until I go crazy and pull out my hair. Or bomb a final. Oh yeah, FINAL is my weakness. I hate reading, and guess what, Crazee Fit will heret me to read the damn bricks!! Oh, itu scary. (I love you Fit! HAHA)

Just received my package today. You see, I subscribed this mini magazine for a year. Gila rajin kan? I love ghost stories. I always have. I still remember when I went for this one horror movie with Edd, I just kept my eyes shut for the whole 2 hours. HAHAHAH! Oh yes, I was freaking out but I love to watch those shit! But at least, Adie jerit lagi kuat dari I? HAHAHAH! I must have read every book they had in the children’s section, I mean-- I used to. But yet, I’m still a sucker for a good ghost story telling. In reality, Imma person who should be annoyed of, not scary of.  So yeah, suck that.

Ah yes, yet another cruel twist in what is becoming quite an interesting life. Always keep your eyes open for the strange and the criminally insane, it's great fodder for the pen and paper. This is my pre-diary. I crap a lot here. But the real things, are all out there for you to find out. Well, this semester I learnt about how blogs do in Journalism. It's under 'New Journalism'. *sigh* Even you yourself can't spill out the whole thing on your own  diary. What a world. Yes, the world-- its getting cruel. It's filled with uncountable laws nowadays. Scary kan?

2010 started with a worry and a little hard times. Later, stress and I got in the way. Then, finding and leaving, making mistakes and false hopes in between. Followed by tough decisions. Eventhough things are not quite settled, I am glad I decided to go back to the old grip, as I had enough time to think back and make decisions for myself, so I think I'm just lucky that 2010 is going to end with such good times. Oh yeah, I'm trying to keep it simple and just flow with it. 4 days to go, and Hello New Year!

Somehow, I'm hoping 2011 will be better, fitter, healthier and more settled. I just need to get my fingers crossed again this time. 

Single on New Year's Eve? AWESOMEEE!! :p

It's My Day!

At first, I was struggling for this one handbag. Oh yes. I went all out, off to here and there, searching for the bag. It's all started like this. Once upon a time, I went to this one shop in Mid valley and "Take a look at that! What a beauty!". But Cdek asked me to think all over again because obviously, I spent a lot already and that bag was just not worth it. So, I let it go. A week later, I went to the shop again in Pavy and Fahrenheit Mall. I searched for the damn bag, that I called as Brown. But it was SOLD OUT everywhere. So again, I went to the Mid again and yes, SOLD OUT also. Later, I went to Pyramid, but only got in black. BROWN was SOLD OUT too. At the same time, I was glanced over this one bag called White. But yeah, I want Brown!! But this White quite cantik but whatever, I want my Brown!! So I made an exit, with a long face.

A month later, I had this one dream- which is 2 days ago. I dreamed about White! OMG, it's a sign!! So I sneaked out to the outlet in OU, searching for the bag but White wasn't there. So I headed home, brokenhearted. I story mory about White to Hariz, and he asked me to show him the picture. So, I go to the web, and yeah- found it!! So, I sent the url to Amirah Babyboo and she printed the ads. On the next day, she went to Pyramid and Empire, searching for the White-- using the ads. I can't go haunting for it 'cuz I had this engagement thingy yesterday, plus I don't have much time to search for it later-- sebab saya susah keluar. Abah saya strict orangnya. Hehehe. So, Amirah went out with her friend, searching for my White. Do you have this kind of friend? I'm proud of having one. Yes, be envy of me bitcheeeezz! :-D So, yeah turned out there's one in Pyramid but it's in black colour. So today, I went to Empire to survey, takda. So, I drove to Pyramid with Ieka, yeah-- I found White in black colour. Hmm.. After 30minutes godek-godek, I've changed my mind. Taknak beli. I don't think its worth it to spend the money on one bag. Ho yeah! Mahal! (jaga hati)

So I went to the Asian Avenue and songlap 4 bags! Ustaz Hariz Mohd yang suruh show off. So, put the blame on him! :p Well, the Mickey one is for my baju baju kalau nak lari dari rumah, senang. HAHAHAH!! And I got myself two same bags. The black one and the pink one if you can see. But but I bought the pink one for Achik. 

HOI, YOU SHOULD FEEL LUCKY TO HAVE A SISTER LIKE ME YOU KNOW!! I KNOW YOU LOVE ME SO MUCH YOU CAN DIE!! HAHAHAHA!! SO SWEET RITEEE!!  SAYANG ME RITEEEE!! YOU CANNOT LIE. 13 YEARS MAN!! I KNOW YOU VERY VERY WELL. HAHAHAH!!

Oh well, that's all for today. Currently listening to Jo Sung Mo. 

Han Ki Ju, will you be mine?

Engagement

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahhiwabarokatuh.

Seperti yang anda dapat lihat, 3 anak dara pinggitan ini lebih over dari pengantin ye. HAHAHA! Anyway, CONGRATS KAK YANA!! After we've done with the engagement, we had this discussion. Who's next?

Mengikut salasilah.. (lihat carta dibawah)

Mak Long's and Cik Din's part almost settled. Next will be Cik Dah's. Geez! I feel freaking old now. Last time, back then, we were playing games together, hide and seek, fighting over toys, jalan sama-sama pergi kedai kat kampung, auwww those times. But now, things changed! One by one tied the knot, then having a children, and another one, and another one, and some moreee. OMG. Dah la anak sepupu makin meningkat. Banyak lebur nanti, dek nak bagi duit raya kat budak budak tu. T-T I'm getting old now!! Ho yeah, almost reach my "Twent-teen"! (Hariz Mohd, 2010) Forever teen, katanya. HAHAHAHA! It's fun to celebrate birthdays, but it's not fun if we realize that each birthday means that we are shorten another one year and guess what? We are one year near to death. Ho yeah! Suicide may sounds like a fun option to take when we had pressures, but actually, I think being dead isn't that fun for now-- sebab I tak taubat lagi!! >.< Buat tambah masalah ada lah! (*tu dia dah bertazkirah dah.)

Oh oh the 3 dara pinggitan, had made some videos about "ORANG CHANTEK!". Thought of sharing with you people but but but but but MALULAH! Plus, I don't even know how to upload videos up here and even if i knew how, I don't think I have enough patience to wait for the videos to be uploaded. HAHAHA!! I had fun today.  This break I didn't get a chance to hang out with Ieka, and I did today!! YEAY!! She's going to be having this  what event lah, in MSU Shah Alam, somewhere in February. LAI LAI! Only RM15 per head. LAI LAI LAI!! Will update about it later, in NEXT YEAR. :D

After we've done in Kajang, we headed to Putrajaya for another wedding. Biasalah, musim cuti sekolah lah musim orang mengawan. Haha! And guess what?! We had our makan makan on the same table with Zainal Abidin-- pemain bola vateran, kot. Haha! I didn't know him at first, but my brother seemed like-- TERUJA? Sorry. HAHAHA! Football is just not my thing. Like I said, football steals people's boyfriendsss!! Tak tipu punya. Experienced sudah.  HAHA!

I bet after this post, there will be questionsss on my Formspring about tudung, as usual kan? So yeah, I'm so sorry asyik on off on off but at least I'm trying to fit in with tudungs? Just be glad that I've started to have a heart to wear it, eventhough Abah forced me to wear on the first place. Ho Ho Ho. Insyaallah, bertunang nanti, pakai full lah, kot. Hehehehe. We'll see about that okay. Mak no comment now. Darah masih panas. Mood sentiasa berubah. Anak muda kan. Haha! Lately post banyak in Malay. Yes, I realized that. Saya sayang Malaysia. Bahasa Melayu ialah ibu lidah saya :p TAHNIAH MALAYSIA UNTUK 3 JARINGAN GOL sekaligus menamatkan peluang Indonesia untuk menjadi Juara. No matter what happened, I still love you Indonesia. Jakarta masih di hati (: Oh talking about Indonesia, I have this dream. Hoyeah, satu impian. After I get married, I want to move back to Jakarta. Like I said, it's a dream. But it's not impossible, right? Hehe. But on second thought, I don't want to get married. So, I might be going alone. KOT? HAHAHAH!! Dasar anak kecil. :p

Whatever it is, she's going to marry this man in June. To the future guests that will attend the wedding, if you see the bride's family members in purple songket, that means, they are all available. Boleh datang, naik pelamin sekali. Save bajet. HAHAHAHA!! *gurauan semata-mata. But betul lah, purple means NOT MARRIED. I don't know about the married ones. We just received the "uniforms" this evening. Gedik betul ada uniform bagai. CHOI!! Baru nak show off kebaya merah yang baru. HAHAHAH!! Anyway, today makes me happy. Every single thing that happened, it cheered me up. At least, I've been out from the misery for a day. Hehehe. 

Time cures everything.

I hope its true.

Take care people. Have a nice day. (:

December 25

Salam.

Sesungguhnya, saya sudah menghabiskan 5 jam saya hari ini di dalam surau. WAHAHAHAH! Cool gila kan? Mak bapak saya bawa saya pergi surau time Krismas. Mak bapak awak ada buat? (No offense) :p

But today punya talk was quite interesting. The talk was devided into three parts - Makna Dakwah, Sejarah Kristian dan Sesi Q&A.

Tak sangka status ni mendapat sambutan. Tampaknya, masih ramai yang sedar. Alhamdulillah syukur. Ustazah Illy sangat bangga dengan kalian! :D

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"Al-Quran diturunkan dalam bulan Ramadhan untuk memberi cahaya kepada manusia supaya keluar dari kegelapan. Persoalannya, siapa dalam cahaya?"

Achik: "Raka"

Illy: "Satria lah!" 

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"Tuhan Maha Esa, bukan anak Tuhan itu Isa. Kita ni hanya ada satu Maulidur iaitu Maulidur Rasul. There's no such thing like Maulidur Isa,"

"Kenapa kita selalu kata Kristian jahat? Sebab mereka mempengaruhi kita? Sebab mereka mengajak kita menganut Kristian? Secara logik nya, adakah ianya salah? TIDAK. Mereka berbuat itu kerana mereka taat kepada agama. Mereka bersungguh-sungguh berdakwah kerana mereka percaya Nabi Isa mengorbankan diri dengan menyalibkan diri kerana ingin menyelamatkan penganut-penganutnya dari api neraka. Oleh itu mereka berasa terhutang budi. Sebab itu mereka sangat bersungguh-sungguh untuk berdakwah. Adakah itu salah? TIDAK ya tuan tuan dan puan puan. Sebaliknya, mereka itu lah penganut yang beriman (dalam Kristian). Kita sebagai umat Islam, pernahkah terfikir betapa banyaknya pengorbanan Rasulullah SAW. Pernahkah kita terfikir untuk berdakwah? Mereka berdakwah, kita bising. Bila suruh berdakwah, kenapa kita diam?!,"

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"Kalau anak perempuan, atau isteri, atau saudara perempuan anda dilabel BOHSIA. Apakah yang anda lakukan?"

-- Pukul!

--- Belasah!

"Kenapa bila orang mencaci Allah, membakar Al-Quran, menuduh Rasulullah SAW sebagai seorang terrorist, kita berdiam diri? Adakah cinta kita terhadap manusia lebih tinggi dari Allah SWT dan Baginda?"

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"Bila saya masuk gereja, saya nampak Islam. Tapi saya tak nampak orang Islam? Bagaimana tu? Mereka mudah mendekati kanak-kanak, sangat mesra, baik, peramah, tapi kalau kita? Mereka menyediakan pelbagai event di kawasan gereja. Mereka menyanyi, melukis, mewarna, mengaji, tapi kita? Bukankah pada asalnya Masjid itu adalah pusat pelbagai aktiviti ilmu? Cuba lihat kita sekarang, kalau kita nampak orang main bola dalam kawasan surau, menyanyi, bermain, lepak-lepak, berlari-lari, apa kita buat? Kita marah, kita halau, kata ini tempat suci, jangan buat bising, lepas tu budak-budak tu lari ke shopping complex, kita kata dia melepak. Salah siapa?"

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"Ingin berdakwah, kita harus mula dengan Akidah dahulu baru Feqah. Ni tidak, remaja yang seksi, yang bersosial, yang terkinja sana-sini, kita beri dia ayat-ayat Al-Quran, kita bersyarah pasal hukum hakam, awak ingat dia nak dengar ke? Bila bercakap, kita kena buat dia faham. Kalau akidah masih tidak betul, jangan harap dia nak terima Feqah."

"Sepanjang saya hidup, maaf jika ayat saya kasar, tapi hanya satu saja Khutbah yang saya rasa bagus berbanding Khutbah Khutbah Sembahyang Jumaat yang saya pernah dengar. Yang lain, macam tak guna! Kenapa? Mereka cakap dengan nada yang tak sesuai, nak cerita pasal tah apa-apa, keluar surah-surah Al-Quran, awak ingat pendengar itu nak dengar? Nak faham? Mereka tak faham langsung pun! Ini membuatkan mereka rasa Islam ini beban. Bagaimana awak nak berdakwah kalau pendengar awak tak faham apa awak cakapkan?"

"Oleh itu, jika berucap, lihat siapa penonton kamu. Jangan nak tunjuk power hafal ayat tu, ayat ni depan orang yang tak faham langsung apa awak cakap. Tak guna semua tu. Sia-sia!,"

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Setakat itu yang saya ingat yang saya rasa nak share? Tapi part Sejarah itu paling meletop nok! Seronok. Tapi yelah, setakat ini Ustazah Illy bersuara. Banyak sangat sejarah rasa macam nak retake SPM. Kot kot boleh A Sejarah? HAHAHA. Sehingga ketemu lagi. Daa~ :D

Summer in December

Hello Hello!

Today, I went to Lagoon with Achik and Amirah Babyboo. Ho yeah. We got free tickets for ALL PARK, okay. Together with RM80 baucher. Jangan jealous, nok. HAHA! And thank you, Babyboo-- for the tickets ((: Walaupun mengidam, but we didn't go for Scream Park. Shamil kata seram?-- sebab bau mulut hantu tu busuk. -__-! 

We went for Extremepark, Amusement Park and Waterpark. Tak jejak Wildlife Park. The wheather was good. Terbakar kejap. And the costume girls, sucks. Kekwat habis nok! But yeah whatever. At least, I had my time today. I'm tired of being miserable. I feel like I'm loosing something-- even though it never was mine. It hurts like fcuk! But yeah, life goes on. And Edd, this is for you.  I have came out with a decision. Yes, I'm trying to change my scope now. Please be proud of me. I'm getting matured here :p HAHA! Oh wow. I'm soooo looking foward for January the first!! I had enough of holidays. But I need to do my final shopping spree by next week! 'Cuz this weekend-- FULLY BOOKED! Next Monday 'til Wednesday, BOOKED. Friday-- get all things packed. Saturday, byebye Shah Alam.

And oh, I had my pencil case renewed!!

So, byebye OLD case. It's time for you to get into the BOX (:

And please anyone or some-bo-dee. If you meet Santa, force him to get me a KINECT!! Ho ho ho. Oh well, gotta get into the bed early tonight. Tomorrow morning I'll be heading to surau. Ho yeah, you've heard me. Ada tazkirah about "Perbezaan Islam dan Kristian" on Natal's morning. Pretty interesting, right? Haha! I bet you all dah menguap by now.  Boo!  Okay people. Have a good night and sleep well. (:

Oh btw, STAY AWAY FROM DRUGS.  

Kalau tak, nanti Chico tampar korang.  :p

Satria!

Hari ini aku maunya ngomong tentang satu laki-laki. Namanya Satria. Walaupun dia hanyalah khayalan semata-mata tapi aku suka liatin dia!! Aku gak tahu gimana caranya, apa, gimana maunya ngomong ya, tapi pokoknya, dia punya semua ciri-ciri yang aku suka. Yaaa ampun. Aku lagi bingung ni. Maunya realita atau mimpi juga aku gak tau. Aku lagi bingung ni. Waduh. Yang dikejar gak dapat. Mujur aku gak ngendong apa-apa. Lagi beberapa hari aja aku akan pulang ke Melaka. Waduh. Gawat ni. Aku emangnya gembira kalo pulang tapi ya, aku juga sih, gak pantas mau ninggalin Satria. T-T 

Daddykins, nak bawa balik Astro sekali boleh? Wuwuwu.

Pokoknya, aku butuh Satria! :p

Mode: Gila

Note to Self

"I know it's not mine. But just this, 
can you give it to me? Don't you think 
I should have something to treasure the memories,"

:-(

Waktu Rehat

One moment.

Sayan sawat-dee. Chan cheu Illyana. Pom ahyu piang sib kau pee tow nan. Wan ni chan blog. Tan sabai dee reu?

Yang nan reu? Chan mai sahp.  Kawp jai. Haha!

Good morning. My name is Illyana. I'm only nineteen years old. This is my blog. How are you? 

Is that right? I don't know. Thank you. Haha!

Okay okay. Merepek Siam kejap. Oh Oh.  What I can say eh. (ALWAYS REMEMBER WHAT YOU WANTED TO WRITE, ILLY!!) Oh, aah. Okay okay. Ehem Ehem. *Clearing throat* Dear Illy, don't jump into any commitment with doubts. Yes. DON'T and NEVER!! No matter how obsessed you are, NEVER-- and NEVER EVER EVER FOREVER NEVER jump into any relationship with DOUBTS! Hehe. Nothing happened pun. I'm just reminding this little fella. Nothing came up pun. Haha. Oh Oh how I wish I can turn back time into where I was in highschool, terlompat sana-sini, living in my innocent life, minus the overload thinking, so that things wouldn't be so complicated as what it is now. Growing up is hard. Maybe outside, it's not as hard as what it seem, but growing up internally is quite hard. Always eager to discover more, trying new things, and easily fucked up? Izwan once said, "Don't you ever try those things okay Illy. I like the way you already are right now,". Maybe I was being immature, or, still, but yeah, I just can't help it. Maafkan saya. If you think I am annoying, then-- ntah lah. Haha! But I miss highschool. Rindu tidur dalam van Kak Intan, tidur tepi kantin, tidur dalam kantin, tidur dalam kelas. OMG, memories!! 

Pejam celik pejam celik, 2 years passed. I was proud of being a student from Project High School, Ninersz, and KTJail. Well, what can I say, I can actually do flashback and see how I was back then and now.  School chums, and all that teenage dramas-- I miss all those shit man! Have you ever fight with your bestfriend because of a guy? Have you ever fall for your bestfriend? Have you ever lost your bestfriend because of popularity that she chase for after you've done everything including leaving your friends for her? Doing crazy stuffs during Truth or Dare? Got tickets because of your long fringe? Getting teased because you're a fucking retard? (It's not my fault if I've lost my left sight) Lied to prefects about your name? Had your name called by Cikgu Disiplin? Have you ever  stalk anybody like a freak? Beat up your senior? (I did that because that little fella stole my video camera, at least I have reason LOL) Burn book? Eliminate your own friend from your group? Doing clothing-line? Busted with parents? Reunions? Performing? Piggybank? Handphone dirampas cikgu? Jadi anak emas cikgu? :p I don't know. Watching those people in school uniforms reminds me of my highschool moments. I moved alot. So there's so much to tell, so much of dramas. Maybe it ain't all that happening, but being okay is better, because too much fun can end up into this low much of fun. So, I prefer this average of fun, and just flow with it. 

Oh someone could you please let me copy your HIMYM Season 2-6?! Anyone?!! Enough with Gossip Girl for now. I need some laughing gas. Lala~

Remix

I think I've lost my mind. Have to try to get it back before everything goes upside down. Y'know, I think I have this little thing for zhe ladies. Oh God, please hand me a man before it's too late! Currently listening to Eenie Meenie. I don't know why, but I feel happy each time I listen to it. Shawty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova! 

"A thousand times I've seen you standing. Gravity like lunar landing, you make me want to run till I find you. Drink to all that we have lost. Mistakes we have made. Everything will change, but love remains the same," Tsk..tskk.

Registration date for MC110 will be on January 1st, 2.00 pm til 5.00 pm. Don't be late! Can't wait to get my ass down in Lendu. I miss you Munki!! Serious tak tipu. And and you too, my hot two lesbos in town! Can't wait to get my bubblebath!! (I wish the other housemates balik on 2nd) :p Sebab I nak cuci rumah!!! >.<

Today, something came up. Trust me, it's HUGE. Hello, happiness. It's been so long since I met you!! Thank you, Allah-- for making my day!! I'm so excited!! Hopefully everything will turn out fine. Oh my, I just can't stop smiling. BHAHAHAHAHH!! It's funny when a simple, small thing makes the world goes round and round. Only now I can sleep in peace. I hope it's worth fighting for. And to you Mr. Sheep, thank you for teman-ing me each night. Eventhough everytime when I get up, you'll be under the bed. LOL!

I had my Tron Legacy last night. Fuck it!! That's the shit yo!! Best movie of 2010, so far!! "I'm not a program. I'm Sam Flynn." Auwww jantang habes!! I love you, Sam!!

HE GOT A LOVE LIKE WOE!!

And Daft Punk was AWESOME-OH!! It's a MUST WATCH movie!! Tapi Abah kata  Tron Legacy is LAME -__-" Whatever, Dad. I had my night. Don't spoil it! :p




P/S: Takziah buat Chico. His grandma just passed away this morning. Al-fatihah.. And goodluck for your Tasawur tomorrow.

Surprise Party for YDP. Bigtime :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BESTFRIEND! :D

Dear FRIENDS.

Hmm. I don't know how to explain this. But first, I want to say sorry. Ampun maaf dipinta dari hujung rambut hingga ke hujung kaki. I've been single since November 10th until now. Adie is my bestfriend and we were like playing some pranks on Facebook but somehow, the pranks were like, hitting the jackpot? Oh, that includes the "in relationship" thingy. As the time passed by, as the day goes by, I feel, .. makin bersalah? It's like everyone, not only from college, even my school(s) friends-- congrats me. I feel, DAMN GUILTY man ! So, I want to apologize. The relationship thingy, it wasn't true. And yeah, ada orang yang famous tu, nama dia Chico, dia marah I!! (>.<)

"Just don't do that, I know it's not you. [....] Later people will think you're a player. [....] Later your mates datang dekat you sebab they think you boleh dibuat main-main. [....] Because you macam not serious in relationship. [....]What I mean is, it's just not you. [....] You just active too much. You more to enjoy your youth. But people just can't accept who you are," (Chico, 2010)

Chico asked me to apologize. So yeah, I AM SORRY. I am serious with my commitment. Promise you, this will be my last one, eventhough this is not my first time, actually this is my second one, hehe. But yeah, swearin loe. Sorry, kawan-kawan. So far, my close friends and Adie's knew it from the start. So to the rest, sorry banget ya. I have to finish what I have started. So now, I'm cleaning up my closet :p Eceycey.

So yeah, GOTCHA!! :DD

Oh Oh btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADIE LOKMAN (:

Eventhough we weren't together as in "together",

but we went to the same school, ponteng sekolah together,

survey for courses together, applied for the same course,
went to the interview together, go to the same college.

What's not to love? You're one of the
best thing that ever happened in my life.

I believe you'll be having a great one!

Why? Because I said so. ;)

Happy Birthday, Bestfriend!

Mr. Sheep is in The House!

Just now I went out with Angah and Achik. Shopping some stuffs, and pangkas rambut. Heheh. So while waiting for Shamil to get his hair done, I took a walk with Achik, searching for Abah's birthday present! Done. And I got myself a present as well!! Yelah, orang single- takda Boyfie nak disuruh belikan teddy, terpaksalah beli sendiri :p  HAHA! Meet my new pet, Mr. Sheep!

Hohohohohohoh. He's so adorable!! Furry Furry Eeeeeee!! =DD Eventhough I have a new pet now, but I will never forget you, Mr. Giraffe. We have been stick to each other since I was two. So in my calculation, we have been (19-2 = 17) 17 years together!! Boleh kahwin tahun depan :p Eeeeee. Now Mr. Giraffe has a new buddy!! But soon, Mr. Sheep is going with me-- back to Lendu. I don't want to bring my Giraffe. Lendu panas dan berdebu, Giraffe kotor nanti. Heee. Love you, Mr. Giraffe. I'll be leaving Shah Alam soon. Dear Mr. Giraffe, don't be sad. You have Elmo, Patrick, Camelia, Stitch, Sleepyhead, Mr. Nerdie, Mr. and Mrs Santa Claus, MeowMeow, Mr. Bear and Mrs. Bear here. Not to forget, Barbies and Kent. And oh, Little Kelly! ('= Don't forget to miss me, you guys! 'Cuz I will. (T-T)

Me together with Mr. Giraffe and Mr. Sheep!! Jangan bergaduh ye korang. Kalau gaduh, dua dua tidur luar!! (AMARAN KERAS) 

Oh, you guys should watch this advert! (Click Here) iPhone 5 sumpah cool doh! MUST BUY MUST BUY! And I've been thinking about taking Detox Tea. Need to get in shape before the semester starts! What do you think? Hmmm. Oh well, nothing much I can mumble about right now. Mengantuk sudah. Mr. Giraffe dah panggil, Mr. Sheep dah kata mari mari! Goodnight, people!! :D xx

Due Date (:

Quote of the Day:
I believe in the ugly truth rather than the beautiful lie.

We girls love to share. Shit happens for reasons. Life's a bitch, and life's got lot of sisters. Just keep this in mind, "A good friend listens to what we don't say".  Maybe those shit that happened has led me to this stage. We don't have a problem with men. We just have a problem with stupid men. Maybe I'm going to be a bit sexism for this one or two days, or more. I just haven't found any guy that I can't live without. Maybe it's not my time yet, I supposed. Well, we shared a lot-- for a short time. Understanding is what we need, and that makes the gap keeps getting smaller and smaller between us. Maybe we just been in the same shit. So, yeah. I can say that-- shit happens for reasons. Meet, Myira Ismail. She's so sweet, always makes my heart melts. Haha! We went for this Due Date movie and it was good, and sweet. More to like friendship thigy movie. A bit slow at the beginning but the advanture was hilarious! Let's just say, it was good. Go and watch it! :p Oh, I had fun today. Although it was a short and simple catch up, but I had fun. It was nice seeing you people, and that includes you too Cdek! Hehehe. My crime partner. Always there for me. Oh, I love you shitloads la Nyah! Seriously I do. You buat I worry worry you. Thank God accident tidak bad. You bikin I shaking shaking very much! (Akibat obsessed dengan sinetron Cahaya)

"I like your perm,"

Nice one, Myira. Haha!! Hm, I'm sorry if I was a bit frozen today. Only God knows how pemalu I am! Hehehe. And Chico Chicka, I'm sorry. Maybe next time ayy? Haji Amin comes first! Hehe. Saya tahu awak suka nama awak ada dalam post saya hari-hari. Haha! Well, I wasn't trying to make you any famous because you already are. Siapa tak kenal Chico Solera, kan? HAHA!

Hmm. Nothing much I can say right now. So, I just leave it simple and short okay. Bad news for you, Botak. Hehehe. Okay, take care everyone. Toddles! :D

Is He?

I know, right? Perfect couple that I've been slightly look up to. The shocking split news was a bomb. Though I had this thought saying they were going to last. Told ya, Twenty-Ten has been naughty for the whole year. Notty notty notty! For God's sake! They have been together for years! C'mon Baby V, do you really want this to happen?? Leaving your Munchkins Efron, for real?! Guess, their careers have taken a toll on them to different parts of the world now. 

Oh well, your loss. Oh oh can you hear it? Zac Efron is single!! Yeah you've heard me!! SINGLE and ready to mingle!! Only now I can die in peace. Chalo :p

Nothing's Ever Built to Last

It has been a long, long break. Lately, I go to bed late, but maybe not as late as I was before. I'm just scared. Scared of everything. I've seen a little. But still, I can't go on. I can't go on like this. I'm traumatised. Keeping myself distracted is exhausting. Don't know when it's going to over but I wish, I really wish that I can erase everything-- the memories, the feeling, the ups and downs, completely everything. I may not getting any, not even a bit, even I've ran thousand miles for it.

And this time I rolled out of bed at 12 instead of 9 am. I figured getting up earlier was worth having time to .. I don't know. But yeah, I woke up a bit late today so, yeah maybe I should ignore about it. Having Dude Herlino in my eyes never failed to keep me distracted. Especially when I see him crying, I feel like, dammit I want to be there for you!! :p (Gosh, Illy. bawa mengucap)

Singing like a crazy person, which wasn't so much a mistake, I think? I've been thinking alot, about everyone, everything, every inch of every second, every whatever, I might have a lot of free time to do the flashback, am I? *sigh* I'm so tired. I guess my brain is too active. So blame the brain, 'cuz I ain't hyper okay Chico :p

Honestly, I glanced over my notebook, searching for the right words to describe what I'm dealing with. And yeah, found it!

"Nothing's ever built to last"

It's really sickening when I have to remind myself about having and loosing. My ego puts me higher than what I am supposed to be. People might enjoyed the jokes, the laughs, the smiles and the warmness that I brought. --correct me if I'm wrong. Well, I enjoy watching my friends happy, giggling, or smiling. They are my treasure. I may be cynical for most of the time, but that's the way I'm showing off my love and grattitudes. I'm sorry if it hurts you, my friends. 'Cuz I ain't a fake. Being nice and all-that-innocent, that's fake. I try to keep things on track, but nothing I didn't already know stuck anyway. Seems that's just the way of things.

I'm afraid of loosing. Yes, I am. I may say "bye" alot, but I didn't really meant it. It hurts when I said it, but it even more hurts if I didn't. So, I'm glad I did. But flashback keep tracks me down whenever I'm all alone. New hopes, is the only thing I have in hands, to keep me moving on from the past. But still, I'm scared. I'm too scared if the new hopes aren't the hopes that I should hope for. I'm a girl with hopes. Full of hopes. But I always get the false ones. I enjoy watching people. Learn from others. Motivate myself. But when the time comes, Imma total loser with a dumb head. I feel numb and completely breakdown. I convinced others, with full of hopes, do this and do that, for their own good, 'cuz its sad for me to see my friends whenever they're in troubles or having heartbreaks. Seems like, it helped. But I wonder why it's not working on me. Why there's no other human being that can help me, take me out from this misery. I've been in this for a very long time and I'm too tired to scream for helps anymore. I'm dying inside. It's the side effects of moving on. I became heartless.

The highlight of my day probably was when 'Alia gave me a present! Thank you Wifey. Not only do I love presents, but what she got me is absolutely cute! I'm pretty sure I made my little 'hyperventilating' excited sound when I opened it. If you know me, you will understand. It's a white tee from Adelaide! Eeeeeee!!

I feel warm when people keep in touch with me. I feel safe. I feel like I'm having another big big family. Sisters and brothers to rely on. To go through every sweetness and darkness of life. To share things. To laugh with. I just need those people to make my day, to keep me stronger from what I am today, because I want it-- oh cross it, I need it. I need it to live. I can't live with a hole inside me. It hurts like it's going to bleed again. The wounds, never leave me. I guess, I can't be cured. No matter what I do, where I go, how much I want to, it's still there. Bleeding.

I speak nonsense. I do things without thinking. I speak my mind, but I never mind what I speak. I talk crap nowadays. I love story telling. I close my eyes. I see none. I'm holding on false hopes, hoping oneday it would changed. I lost my mind. Feel free to say it straight to my face. Because probably I'll be glad to hear it, with a sincere smile on my face. Eventhough my heart isn't. I gotta a lot in me, gotta get it out. Can you hear it? Its so much more than just a sound. I'm beginning to imagine, as well as beginning to believe. Call me dramatic. I'm living in my fantasy. If I could fit the world in my pocket. Take my hidden dreams and unlock. I'd be flying in one rocket, without doubts and worries. Leaving all nightmares behind. It's my dream and no one can stop it.

I'm going mad. Yes, I am.

Oh Rabbit Oh Wifey Oh Honey!

Weee. Finally, I jumpa you, Rabbit!! 

12 years and still counting. Auww. 

Yet Rapunzel was awesome!! 

Great cartoon cartoon!!

Here comes the new telling fairytale. 

Auwwwwww. (':

Sumatera

There's so much to tell. So much to share. Great experience, yet was a sweet escape. Don't know where to start, or even how to. Only pictures can tell. So much to be discovered, searching without a soul. I've seen the unseen. But still, I don't see anyone when I look into the mirror. Still on my way, searching, and picking up those broken puzzles. Stick it nicely, with hopes and faith. I may be empty inside. But darling, I don't do mocking smile. When I smile, it's sincere. 

Trust me.

I'm an Apple!

Ejat kata macam tikus mondok.

[-__________-"]


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School kiddos will always be school kiddos. No matter how matured they act, they will always be school kiddos. I read this one post of this one kid, so funny but sorry cannot share. (Jaga muka beliau kann) I went through it with Achik. So funny man! Urat kentut pun macam nak putus je. Stupid girl. Jealousy also bertempat, dik. Don't always jump into conclusion. (Sorry, Fit) :p  You came up with your own sick hypothesis, then you called yourself stupid was actually, a right thing to do. I enjoy dramas and hope you are too. But don't be so stupid lah. And yeah, mind your own manners as well. I have lot of things to care about. So yeah, broaden up your scope a bit okay. Maybe for now, you won't get it. But sooner or later, you'll know. 

Okay, maybe I'm writting too much. Let me get this straight for you.

GET A LIFE. 

I just don't have time to share things with anyone. Especially you. Don't think that you're special enough to get the treatment from me. But trust me. I did enjoyed myself reading yours just now. Hope you're enjoying mine as well. Toddles! :D

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Oh Oh Not to forget. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYBOO!!! AMIRAHKU, SAYANGKU, CINTAKU, KEKASIH HATIKU, P.A.--KU, ORANG KANANKU, LIMPAKU, JANTUNGKU, PUNDIKU, ..

(....) Okay enough. Heee. Selamat Ulang Tahun yang ke-19, Rempit!! Aku nak belanja makan, kau jual mahal. Bila aku miskin, time tu kau nak merajuk aku tak belanja. Bila aku kaya, kau jual mahal!! Offer aku datang once in a blue moon, tahu?!! Tengok?!! Time birthday kau aku nak berleter. Sebab harini aku tak berleter. Sibuk dengan Han Ki Ju. (Maafkan saya) Aku tahu aku dah khatam cerita tu berpuluh-puluh kali, tapi dia je aku ada? :p Jenab. Happy Birthday. Semoga umur kau diberkati. Nak kata umur dah panjang, tak juga. Makin pendek ada la. Terima Kasih kerana sentiasa disisi. Walaupun kau ada, aku tak layan. Kau datang sini, aku busy chatting :p Tapi dalam hati, kau tetap number ONE! Kau patut bangga sebab aku taip panjang lebar ni. Aku tak suka SMS panjang-panjang. Jari aku sakit nak taip. Kuku aku rosak nanti. Lusa aku dah terbang keluar. Semoga kau jaga diri baik-baik. Aku tahu dah macam surat cinta dah ni tapi takpa, aku pun dah lama tak tulis surat cinta. Pernah tulis sekali je. Itu pun zaman sekolah. (Bhahahah!) Sekarang aku dah besar. Aku tulis dekat blog. (bangga) Semoga kau tak nakal-nakal. Umur dah 19. Bila aku telefon, janganlah jerit-jerit. Sakit telinga lah. Tahi telinga pun menggigil. Kau tahu kau annoying kan? Walaupun kau ni takda lah baik mana, tapi Abah sayang kau? Aku benci kau. :p

Tapi terima kasih. Aku mengamuk ke aku maki kau ke, kau jerit lepas tu kau diam. Aku suka. Haha! Woi, dah menitik belum? Cepat lah menangis. Aku dah sweet tahap diabetes ni. Kau ni bukan selalu dapat surat cinta. Paperwork je banyak. Tapi bguslah. Kalau kau curang, aku bunuh kau. Kau cari nafkah baik-baik. Aku kan isteri yang cerewet. Dapat gaji, bagitau aku- Okay?!!

Sekali lagi, Happy Birthday! Selalunya aku wish orang "have a blast!". Tapi aku tahu, harini birthday kau macam neraka. Satu: Kau tak jumpa aku. Dua: Kau dah start kelas? Hahaha!! Kita sambut bila aku dah balik nanti.

Apa-apa pun, aku benci kau. You're the best!!

♥ (:

Happy New Year (:

I suppose that's a lie, another lie.

You're always lying. That's why I don't want to know you.

Act for yourself. Face the truth. Liar.

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Oh Oh, December is always synonymous with Christmas. Or Year End Sale. Or New Year. Or Clearance Stock Sale. Sale. And -- Sale. But this December, as in today, I'm welcoming the new year in Muslim Calendar as today is Muharram 1, 1432. Happy New Year everybody! Or.. Salam Muharram? Hehe.

Welcoming the new year is always synonymous with having new target, new ambition, new hopes, new leaf, new story, new drama, or new me-- I supposed? Eeerr. Nothing in mind now. For now, let's just hope everything will be fine okay?

Nothing much happened, but seems like a bunch has been revealed. I'm so dissapointed. Thought you were the right crowd that I can fit in. Sadly, there's no more space of me that you can stab. Slowly, I'm leaving. Yes, you're loosing me now. Hmm. I feel as though I've been acting a little bit ugly in this little blog 'o' mine lately. It's been a long break so far, with the general hustle and bustle that this season brings. Third sem is so tiring!! Eventhough its holiday already.

Results is coming up! So far, this semester is the ugliest of the most ugliest time so far in my life. Fucked-up would represents best. But but according to Mr. Chico -- Don't be so emo, emo doesnt suit you. LOL! But yeah, thanks for cheering me up. South Park crack doh. Haha! Thank you (:

Lalalala lala lala laa~ Setiap malam saya crack. Tapi orang melayankan je. Terima kasih. :P

This Is My Confession

Saya dah tak mahu suka orang dah. Saya tak suka siapa siapa pun. Sebab bila saya suka. Saya suka sangat-sangat. Bila saya suka sangat-sangat. Orang tak suka saya. Saya jadi sedih. Saya mulai menyebut nama dia hari-hari. Kawan kawan saya mula rasa menyampah. Kawan-kawan mula marah pada saya. Kawan-kawan kata saya angau. Ye, saya angau bila saya suka sangat-sangat. Saya rasa nak mati bila dia tak suka saya. Saya susah nak puas hati. Saya sangat cerewet.

Tapi bila saya suka. Saya nak rebut sebab saya nak. Saya nak dia sangat-sangat. Jarang saya jadi begini. Selalunya saya akan berfalsafah. Tapi bila tiba masa saya. Saya jadi tak keruan. Bila dia tak suka saya. Walaupun baru 2 hari. Saya rasa macam nak gila.

Oleh itu saya tak mahu suka siapa-siapa. Saya tak nak suka dia lagi. Saya dah puas kejar. Tapi dia tidak membalas. Saya nak kembali ke jalan yang benar. Saya nak --

Dude Herlino!!  ♥

When Revenge Doesn't Suit Me Well

"It's ironic that the people who are supposed to be our friends, are the ones we feel most threaten by".

I guess it's true.

There I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles. Same old tired, walls of insincerity, shifiting eyes and vancancy that never vanished. Sad isn't it?

But it's even more sad when there's still some people out there who don't really get it, I mean, DON'T EVEN GET IT AT ALL, started to act like Mr. Knows-It-All. Must be sucks being you ayy?

Your fucking propagandas will take you nowhere Bitch. Acting like a girl, weak and useless.

You took away my joys. You steal away my laughters. You give me tears. You broke my heart. The pain was beating on me like a drum. You underestimated, just who you were stealing from. --


You play with fire.

Keep on digging. Make it deep enough. Because the horses are coming in, my way. Mark my word.

But it's even more, more, sad when no matter how hard you stabbed me. Or how many times you crushed me. How hard I try to hate you.

I'm still the same old Illy.

I can't hate. Not even close. Not even a bit. Not even at all.

And I hate myself for that.